Today I learned a lesson in letting go. It was supposed to be a busy Saturday out of the house. I had planned to go to a birthday party in the afternoon, a Friendsgiving party in the late afternoon, and then a basketball game in the evening. But instead, my little boy woke up from his nap with a fever. So, in the house we stayed.
Still determined to make it a productive day, I decided it would be a day of cleaning the house. But as I was washing the dishes, little man came over and hugged my leg. I looked down at him and told him I was almost done, but he looked up and with his ever famous word “uppy,” I couldn’t help but put everything down, to snuggle with him on the couch.
As I sat there, I was overwhelmed by the crushed crackers on my floor. I felt bad for the people I let down by not showing up to things I RSVP’d “going” to. I can be so hard on myself for not being able to do everything that I planned. But then I am reminded of the sweet little boy laying in my arms. In that moment, the reason for staying and letting go of everything was well worth it. For in this season of my life, regardless of what I have in mind, I was created to care for my little angels.
Sometimes, you might have an idea of how your life is supposed to go. And it can get extremely disheartening when things don’t go the way you expected. You feel like you’ve missed out on opportunities, disappointed others, and accomplished nothing. And as important as I think it is to plan for the future, I believe it is just as pertinent to live in the present. To take everything, day by day, moment by moment. Plan with a hopeful heart and good intention, but understand that life happens!
With letting go, comes peace. When you try to control every little aspect of your life, you set yourself up for disappointment. You are not perfect and that’s okay. Life is unpredictable, and that’s okay. The way you decide to handle the ebb and flow of life, is what determines your success in whatever it is that you are trying to accomplish.
So for all my Type A readers, my planners, and control freaks. I get it. I’m with ya! But I challenge you, to let go a little this week. Look at the mess in your house, or in your life and just choose to be still. Take time for yourself. Lay on the couch with your kids. Binge watch Paw Patrol or watch Coco on repeat. Maybe you have dreams for really big things, but remember that there is big purpose even in the little things.